Mind Blown

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October 25, 2017: My day at work was miserable! I don't think miserable even begins to describe it, honestly. I get to work minding my own business, doing my job. Co-worker comes to me who has been there over a month now, who sometimes acts completely clueless some days, says "I don't have a scanner, I don't know what to do." I said "ok, let me see if I can find them," because other people come and take our equipment all the time and never return it. She said "Ok, while you do that, I'm going to put a couple of things away," whole pointing to the items. I noticed it was clearance stuff. I said, "Hey could you help me out while I find the scanners?" She says ok. Told her what I wanted help with. I thanked her several times for the help. I went to find the scanners, spent 25 MINUTES of my time doing stuff for her and one other person! All the while, I got gripped at for not being able to do a "locate" on the scanners by someone who I asked if they could do that for me. Then running around the store, getting lied to by people who had a scanner, asking and pleading for someone to let us borrow a scanner. I find one, give it to these 2 very ungrateful people, thanked them again for helping me out, and never got a thanks for locating a scanner for them to use. Couple hours later, I'm being gripped at by my boss for not letting them do their jobs. THEY COULDN'T DO THEIR JOBS WITHOUT A SCANNER THAT I LOCATED FOR THEM UNTILL I DID LOCATE ONE! I'm done helping them.  If I help them, I get gripped at. If I'm moody and in excruciating pain and accidentally snap at them, AND APOLOGIZE FOR IT, I get gripped at. I tell someone that I'm in so much pain and just want to go home, and apparently I don't want her there at work. I ask her if she has a problem with me and if I offended her somehow and she says she was just telling someone that I didn't feel like being there cause I was in pain. Someone is lying to someone!
Why am I the bad person for being nice and helping them and asking for help? Am I not allowed to ask for help in return?

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