Dating

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October 6, 2017: I got my lab results Thursday morning. Everything was normal. Well as normal as it can be for me. I go back to my Dr on Monday. I'm still in pain. Still dealing with muscle weakness and physical exhaustion. I'm extremely glad that I'm off work tomorrow.  I can rest up tomorrow and get some things done hopefully. I left my job at the mall, and I hopefully will be less stressed out.
I've been on dating sites, and I had one guy come at me with all the negativity in his life and then asked me to tell him mine. I'm sorry dude I don't know you. I don't want to sit her thinking about all the negativity in my life.  I don't want to think about the men that have hurt me.
You don't ever ask a person with PTSD to tell every story with detail. You might as well say hey, I'm going to make you relive the worst times of your life for my own entertainment and curiosity, because I can only focus on negative stuff. A person with PTSD does not want to relive those days, and those horrors. A person does not want to deal with flashbacks. This guy later asked me "you're not interested in me are you?" NOOOOOO! I'm not. All you can talk about isvthe negative, and how much worse your life is than my own. I told him multiple times that I didn't want to play the 'my life is worse than yours' game. By that point in the conversation, I no longer cared to talk to him. However he wanted to prove how much worse his life was. Well, point proven dude! He keep talking negatively like that to every woman, and you'll stay single and miserable for life. According to him he doesn't have much time left. I'm sorry dude, that your life is miserable.  Don't beg someone else to recap their misery for your entertainment or in the hopes of the two off you connecting and starting a relationship. Not happening.
I don't normally blog about my dating experiences but I'm starting to think I should. People always ask if I've met someone. How my love life is. To be honest, I don't know that I desire to date anyone else. I've met/dated Christians with baby mommas and a kid out of wedlock. Christians who called me names that I do not like repeating. If this is how Christians behave I want nothing to do with anyone. Men outside of the Church cheat on me and abuse me. It's better off for me to be lonely. Especially if this is the way I'm treated.

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