Exciting news!

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October 22, 2017: Well as many of my friends through Facebook now know, I'm now writing for a brand new magazine, PTSD the magazine. It's an online magazine. I have wrote an article for the first publication. I'm super excited about this new adventure. Not only am I writing for the magazine, but I'm also helping to manage the Facebook and Instagram accounts for the magazine. I'm excited about where this journey takes me.
I'm hoping to remember this feeling of being on cloud 9 right now to help me get through my bad days. Not everyday is a basket of roses. Somedays are nothing to brag and write home about. When we have our bad days as all of us will, we have to remember the good ones. The birth of a child, a marriage, or even a promotion. I've dealt with the loss of my sweet Skizix for 2 months now. As I move forward with my life without him, I look back and realize how important he was to my mental health. If you don't have a pet  get one. I can't express how important it is. They truly are amazing in how they just know when you need them the most.
I feel like I am realizing my potential now as a writer. So many people give me encouragement and support and tell me how much they love reading my blog. Somedays I don't feel the energy to write, or I feel like I have nothing to say. Other days I feel like my blog is a bore. The feelings of worthlessness are often overwhelming. I know this too is part of my own PTSD and depression. For now I'm going to focus on the magazine and trying to continue to reach as many people as possible.

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