My Day

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September 4, 2017: Only 4 days until my baby brother's birthday. Hard to believe that 26 years ago he was born and his birth mother made the difficult decision to give him up. To his birth mom, thank you for your sacrifice. Your sacrifice was my family's gain. My baby brother is my thorn in the flesh some days, however if someone else messes with me... well, let's just say you picked the wrong sister to mess with.
Yesterday and today was a bad day in general.  I had to work both days. My anxiety flared really bad and it took me awhile to calm down. There was people I wanted to talk to and couldn't because they was busy. This morning I got up and felt horrible. My allergies are bugging me and making me feel sluggish. I'm cold even though the temp is 74 and I have 2 blankets on me. I sorta lied to people at work that I was fine, when in truth, I wanted to puke, curl up in bed and sleep.
I've come to another realization that I am way to busy right now to have a relationship with anyone. Working 3 jobs just to make ends meet. I barely talk to anyone anymore. I'm a hermit. Today I went to lunch with 2 coworkers and I felt very uncomfortable mostly cause I felt like the odd man out, but also because I'd rather just eat alone. I don't want to be around people. Not even my coworkers.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm falling apart at the seams.
Right now I am about to fall asleep and can't keep my eyes open. Well... goodnight everyone.
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