Anxiety

June 5, 2017: When you loose all trust in human kind, you find yourself alone in this big world. You don't want to be around anyone, out of fear that they'll learn how to hurt you, and stab you in the back as hard as possible. When you have been shown over and over by boys who claim that they love you, that you mean absolutely nothing to them, you have no desire to date anymore. You've been hurt over and over. Thrown away like trash. Used for your job title, money, beauty, or just for the fact that they can say they have a gf. You simply wish to stay home, go nowhere, stay in pajamas, do nothing all day. The stress and anxiety wear you out, and you want to sleep all day. Stay in a place that is comfortable,  perhaps like your couch, chair, or bed. Cover up and stay warm where no one can hurt you again. You can't be beat, choked or have things thrown at you. You can't be raped. You won't be used again. You don't have to look over your shoulder worrying that someone is following you. You don't have the tightness in your chest causing you to not be able to breathe. You aren't shaking uncontrollably in fear. You aren't being stared at by men who like your curves. You don't feel like you are being visually raped and undressed by men's eyes.
People always ask me why don't I go out and have fun. It's because I have anxiety. I have PTSD. I know what men are capable of doing, because I've already been at the receiving end of it. I'd rather not put myself in the vulnerable position to be hurt again.
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