Ugly

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June 13, 2017: Maybe everyone is just being nice to me. Maybe I really am ugly and people don't want to offend me so they find a nice feature about me and compliment it. I have to many freckles. My hair is ugly stupid red and blonde color. My ears and nose is small. My eyes aren't a pretty blue but ugly brown. My skin is so white and I can't tan. I'm fat. I have ugly stretch marks from weight gain and loss.I'm not runway model pretty. Let's face it, I'm ugly. My attitude stinks. I don't have confidence in myself. I have PTSD. I seek attention through health issues that are legit. I try loosing weight, but for some reason I have hit a plateau. I count calories. I walk 5-7 miles a day 5 days a week or more. I'm ugly. I'm fat. I don't care anymore.

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