Frustration and willpower

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June 12, 2017: Today has been a tough day. My boss has 2 family members in the hospital. My brother had to come in on his day off while another employee did nothing all day, gripped about having to come in all week even though this person got 2 days off and my brother has no days off this week. Then this person wanted to stand and talk while I'm doing the floor sweep at the end of the day. Seriously I don't have time to chat! Why am I frustrated? How about cause you are standing here on the clock wasting my time and company time wanting to talk about my feelings of why I am frustrated that my brother is coming in on his 1 day off to fill in for you because you don't want to do anything except talk on your phone all day, walk past trash on the floor, past tables that was dirty, sit down behind Auntie Anne's with your cart behind you and be content to let me do all the work and then complain to a very close friend of Stephen's about how Stephen and I do absolutely nothing!  Please! You got so much drama in your life, your making my head spin and you are to absorbed in your phone to notice trash or tables and can't find the store Written In Stone by the main entrance for over 10 minutes!
However,  I kept my trap shut like my boss asked me to. When this person came to me asking about me and why I am frustrated,  I said "Because I have a lot of work to do and I don't have time to chat because you are going home." I walked on, and didn't look back.
I was talking to a guy who works at a store in the mall and in some small way this guy amazes me. He has lost both of his legs and he still walks! I told him today, if I lost both my legs, I hope I would have the strength to fight and to walk again like him. He asked me a question, "How many days in a row are you at now of work?" I said today is day 15. He said, "You have the will power to do it!" I  just smiled and said thanks. I hope he's right. Some days I feel like I don't have the will power to fight my demons let alone dealing with this drama at work! Supposedly,  according to mall gossip,  I have a crush on 2 guys in the mall, and the truth is, I don't. I am attracted to someone else in the mall. This mall gossip is childish.  If you hear something about me, ask me! Don't spread the rumor. I like both guys, but only as acquaintances. Nothing more.

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