I give up!

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November 27, 2017: I don't know where to begin. I don't know what to say anymore. I pour my heart out to you. I am a bit depressed right at the moment.  I have so much stuff going on in my mind from work, personal health issues, and life. I'm attracted to a few guys that I will never be with. Either on a mental or physical attraction level. I truly believe I'm supposed to stay single anymore. It seems like everyone has kids, is divorced or just dumb. I don't want to be a guy's Jiminy Cricket and tell him that's not smart. I don't want to be his brains and figure everything out for him. I don't want to be his common sense. I don't want to do the thinking for both of us. I have enough things to think about as is. I want a Christian that will go to church with me and help me build my faith. I've been to local churches and Christian sites. No one talks to you on there. No one is interested in me. They admire the fact that I'm opening myself up to other churches to meet guys, but they dont really care. No one wants someone with severe trust, physical and mental health issues. Guys want one thing, sex. If a woman doesn't spread her legs, she ain't a good woman. Apparently the bedroom is the only aspect that matters in life to men. That's the reason there are so many out of wedlock children. There was a time when it was taboo to be an out of wedlock kid. Nowadays, it's acceptable to not have 2 parents and it's commonly asked if your parents are still together. Even in the church it's becoming common to have a split home. I personally don't want my husband to see an ex girlfriend of his every other weekend or whatever the arrangement is. This is why I refuse to date men who have kids. Everytime I do, I get cheated on. Starting to think men and women need to wear a chastity belt or whatever. I give up. I'm done with dating.

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