HOPE FOR THE FUTURE

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December 30, 2017: On December 29, at 9:30 am, I started going to counseling and I saw a Dr. I'm being diagnosed with Bi-polar II. My moods have been very unstable recently. I'm being put on different medicine than I was before. I am waiting now for the pharmacy to locate and obtain gluten free medicine for me. I started group counseling today.  It's interesting to say the least. There are people in there that I can relate with very easily.  I hope this makes me not feel alone. I know I'm not, yet I feel like I am. I have my parents, and my 2 friends. Group counseling was tough cause my anxiety reared its ugly head a bit. It wasn't severe, just enough to make me feel uncomfortable. Men and women both. I sat between women to try to feel more comfortable. I wanted to run away and hide. Once I got home it calmed down. I want to get my agoraphobia under control when it comes to unfamiliar territory.
I made a decision today to do the $1 a week savings plan as my New Year's Resolutions. The first week I save up $1 the next week $2 and so forth. By the end of the year I should have over a thousand saved. I'm horrible about saving up money. I hope I can do this. I kept to my New Year's Resolutions this year, and I stayed single. Now to better myself one way at a time. One day at a time.

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