I'm not sure

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August 15, 2017: Today I'm not really sure what to write about. Do I write about my opinion about Charlottesville? Do I bring up that I went to orientation today at Meijer? How about my sudden attack of allergies and the severe sore throat yesterday? Report of how my ankle is? My mental state? How about my work week and how it's going?

I'm still stressed out some, but not as bad. My celiac disease has calmed down as a result of the stress. My ankle gets better every day. I sorta rolled it last week but it feels better. I'm fighting a sudden increase in my allergies and all the stuff draining from my head. As a result I had a very severe sore throat yesterday. Today, however, breathing has been over rated and non-essential. I feel a lot of congestion in my lungs, which causes quite a bit of coughing. This too, shall pass.

I'm working 4 jobs this week. I'm working my regular Mall job plus my babysitting and one day for the animal rides job. However I am moving on to a new job at a place that I've worked at before. I'm excited to be going back, but between me and my direct supervisor I'm not sure who's more excited me or him.

Charlottesville... I don't know where to begin. White lives matter. Purple lives matter. Brown lives matter. ALL LIVES MATTER! However, ALL HISTORY MATTERS! You cannot erase history. You can try not to teach it. You can try to take down monuments. The history is still there. You cannot erase time. My history of pain is still there. It still happened. As much as I'd love to forget that it ever happened, I can't. It's apart of what makes me who I am.  America's history is apart of what makes it a great nation. The history is there whether you like it or not! If you hate America's history so much, make it a better one or get out! The door is right there! Go! No one is stopping you! Get out!


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