Still Alive!
April 4, 2018: My sincerest apologies for not having wrote recently. I've been through a lot recently and wasn't sure of what to write or to tell you. I had my LEEP done to remove the abnormal cervical cells. I've bled and shed from it like nothing else. I'm still healing. I got a new cell phone this year and couldn't access my pay stub information and now I have no insurance and trying to get new insurance. I wasn't able to go to my OBGYN for my follow up. I haven't been able to go to the gym to go swimming or to work out. It has depressed me. The rain and snow has wrecked havoc on my body and my fibromyalgia. I'm still seeing a therapist and I plan on going back to group therapy on Friday morning.
They say in Disney that "A dream is a wish your heart makes." Disney obviously never had PTSD dreams. All of my dreams are nightmares. With PTSD, the dreams can be nothing more than the feelings and emotions of the traumatic event you experienced. In my case that is what I deal with. I deal with nightmares or night terrors that threaten my life. It's no wonder I have insomnia. I take Melatonin to help me sleep. A Dr, gave me ambien one time to help me sleep during a sleep study and that did absolutely nothing for me.
Work is going well I reckon. We have a new boss now. I like him. We think he will work out with us. I worked with the Easter Bunny set, and I enjoyed the time doing that and yet, I'm grateful it's over now. I think I will be considered to be allowed to return for Santa to be a helper. Speaking of Santa, the Santa that was there at the mall last Christmas returned to town for a visit. It was wonderful to see and visit with him again. Sad that he won't be returning though.
This is my blog. This is my voice.
HEAR ME ROAR
They say in Disney that "A dream is a wish your heart makes." Disney obviously never had PTSD dreams. All of my dreams are nightmares. With PTSD, the dreams can be nothing more than the feelings and emotions of the traumatic event you experienced. In my case that is what I deal with. I deal with nightmares or night terrors that threaten my life. It's no wonder I have insomnia. I take Melatonin to help me sleep. A Dr, gave me ambien one time to help me sleep during a sleep study and that did absolutely nothing for me.
Work is going well I reckon. We have a new boss now. I like him. We think he will work out with us. I worked with the Easter Bunny set, and I enjoyed the time doing that and yet, I'm grateful it's over now. I think I will be considered to be allowed to return for Santa to be a helper. Speaking of Santa, the Santa that was there at the mall last Christmas returned to town for a visit. It was wonderful to see and visit with him again. Sad that he won't be returning though.
This is my blog. This is my voice.
HEAR ME ROAR
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