Ramblings of a mad woman

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March 9, 2018: I have less than a week before my upcoming procedure to be done. Next Wednesday for those that are also concerned and praying on my behalf. Dr said I'd want to be off work for 2-3 days after the procedure is done. AAAHHH! That long just to heal up and to stop bleeding and not be in pain? I know it's not surgery, but all I get for pain is "take some Ibuprofen" advice. I am getting a decent sized chunk of my cervix surgically removed with a machine! Yes, I'm seriously starting to freak out now.
Sunday night a cousin of a coworker started harassing me standing there staring at my backside while I was trying to work. My coworker had noticed that he would try to stare at me and sneak glances at me. Then Friday night he started following me through the mall trying to talk to me. They are looking at getting him banned. He doesn't come to the mall to buy stuff. He's only there to see me and his fiance/gf/ex whatever she is at the moment. NOT to mention the fact that she accused me of having sex with this 40+ year old that drives a moped and is uglier than sin itself! UGH! Sorry but he is so not my type. I politely asked him Sunday night, "Leave me alone please?" and because I asked that, I got reported to security. Seriously?! He stormed off mad like a little kid. That is not a man. That is a boy. Good riddance. Peace out kid. Whatever.
I'm sick of men asking me for sex everyday. YES! I said everyday. It gets old very fast. I'm tired of being harassed. My own mother thought that I must be doing something to get this kind of treatment all the time. I said yeah, I'm being pretty and nice.
I don't want to go to work anymore cause of men constantly staring and making me uncomfortable. I wish I could hide my face. However they'd still stare at my butt and boobs. I don't know what to do anymore.

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HEAR ME ROAR

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