Triggers

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January 15, 2018: This weekend hasn't been the best, but not bad. I recovered from the flu, and immediately went back to work. I apologized to someone for the trouble and strife between us.  I'm not sure things will ever go back to being normal between us. Not sure if I can allow it to be back to normal. So many things happened.
My anxiety was bad this weekend at work. Looking back, I think it had to do with the number of hours I worked this weekend. It also has to do with the double standard  things we deal with at work. What I mean by that is, you can't leave it outside, but you can't leave it inside. I don't deal with stress well, and this certainly stresses me out. I try to solve the problem myself, when it's not my problem to solve.
Today at group, I got triggered just by talk about child molesters. During break I went outside, but I wanted to be alone for a minute to calm down. I knew better than that. I didn't listen to my voice of reason though. I went to the bathroom and I was in tears by the time I reached it. I blew my nose, washed my hands, splashed my face with water and dried up and back to my meeting I went.

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