I'm too pretty

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May 30, 2017: Yesterday I got back from Richardsville visiting with my Great Uncle and Aunt and spent time with other family and even saw my "sissy". A different  Great Aunt's funeral was Sunday.  It was great seeing family, just not under the circumstances. Right now I'm sitting at work not really wanting to eat anything and kinda angry at "Aladdin" for snapping my bra. "Aladdin" is a guy that works in close proximity of me everyday. I understand that I'm pretty, and yes I'm flirtatious,  but that kinda hurt. It's times like this that self mutilation thoughts become very real. Thoughts about ways to make my boobs look flat, make my face look ugly, and even eat as much as I want to become fat. It's a real struggle. I want to loose weight to be healthier because of my arthritis and my celiac disease, but there are times when I hate myself for being pretty. It's the pretty women who have to “learn tips and tricks” to be comfortable when it's hot. (Borrowed from the sexual assault poem https://youtu.be/C6ONugTPF6s.) Why do guys think it's ok to pull a bra strap and snap it on her back? It hurts! Especially for more endowed women. Our back already hurts cause of our boobs. Not to mention that I was bitten by a bug in the same area as the bra strap that he snapped! Why is it ok for men to go around shirtless but if a woman wears a tank top, or spaghetti straps, it's to destractive for men?
DO WHAT?! Is anyone else's head spinning from that? I mean seriously? I'm not saying it's ok for anyone to be shirtless, and let's have some modesty here! I'm 31, I know, I'm crying out for more modesty! I'm crying out for more respectable men. Everyday, I deal with men that treat me like trash. I am a pretty face and big boobs. I'm not allowed to have feelings and desires of my own. I'm not allowed to have male friends without getting sex offers. I'm not allowed to tell a guy that I think he's cute, and say no I don't want to have sex, with out being talked about hatefully later! I'm a sex object, not a human being with emotions!
WELL I SAY ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I'm no longer standing by while men snap my bra, or while they hate talk about me in front of their customers cause I don't want sex.

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