Lost still

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I'm lost. I'm stressed beyond belief. I don't know what to do anymore. I messed up. 
I am trying to do my best to take care of my brother-in-law, but I feel like I am failing at it. He needs to go to so many dr appointments and yet I feel like I have no time to do that. We found out that he has stage 3 liver cirrhosis. We are getting more tests to make sure it's not progressing to stage 4. I'm now his Power-of-Attorney and I worry that I'll mess up somehow and not do what is best for him.
My fibromyalgia is making me so tired throughout the day at work, by the time I get home, I'm not able to do dishes or any house work. I eat and then I crash in bed. I hurt from head to toe. I feel like my husband doesn't understand how severe my pain is sometimes. 
My husband is dealing with court and lawyers because of FAMILY! Other family is helping us out. It amazes me that family will stab you in the back this way, but other family helps you in your time of need. There is one thing that I learned from Disney's Lilo and Stitch. Ohana means family and family means no one is left behind or forgotten. To me, that means the opposite of stabbing family in the back. I just don't understand how one minute you can attend the wedding of a family member and then in the next few years you are taking us to court.  We live paycheck to paycheck right now. We can't afford court costs. Even the judge said this was ridiculous. Why!?
My dad's mom, my grandmother, passed away January 21. She suffered from alzheimers. It's a horrible way to watch a loved one die. To watch a person you know not even know what year it is or where she is at. I may not have been overly close to her but she's still my Grandma. I hope she is no longer suffering from that horrible disease. 
Yesterday my mother had a reverse shoulder replacement and is doing relatively well now. She's in pain some and will have to do lots of physical therapy and need lots of help around the house for the next couple of months. 
From here on out I don't know what to do anymore. As I said, I'm lost!

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