Cycle Day 1 Again

It's cycle day 1 again. Many of you may know what I'm talking about,  but some of you may not know what I am talking about. 

INFERTILITY. 

It's an ugly word that some people deal with. Unfortunately it is something that my husband and I are dealing with. 

We started dating May 30, 2019, and got married on May 30, 2020. We knew from the start that we wanted children. As soon as I got off my birth control and started my periods again, we started trying to conceive. Unfortunately we were not able to conceive right away. A few months later, my husband started to hurt severely and was extremely tired all the time. He went to the Dr and they started many tests on him. One test was his testosterone levels.  Found out that they were extremely poor for someone his age. They sent him to a male fertility specialist and I went to my personal OBGYN. My OBGYN referred me to a specialist in Newburgh, IN. The two Dr's got together and between the two, they decided that the best course of action was to do IUI (Intrauterine Insemination).

My fertility Dr. wanted to make sure that I had no blockages in my uterus and that my hormones and a few other things were all were they should be at. Mom and I went to Newburgh for those tests they performed there. They injected dye into my uterus and took X-rays looking for the blockages that could prevent me from getting pregnant and looked at my cervix to make sure it was healthy after having a Colposcopy done a few years ago. Everything looked good according to the scans, blood work, X-rays. 

Next step, IUI.

I had to call cycle day 1 and tell them when I started. They then prescribed me 10 pills that cost in the $200 range that insurance would not cover. GoodRX came to the rescue and cut the cost in half thankfully. I took 2 pills a day for 5 days to increase the number of eggs released at ovulation time. Then it came time for the ovulation prediction kits. As soon as I was positive, I called the office and said hey it's time!

January 4th, my husband and I drove out to Newburgh in hopes that we would get pregnant.  Two weeks later I had to test. No positive response.  Two days later, it was cycle day 1 again. Back to repeating all those steps again. 

The extreme depression that I felt on that day is un-describable. I wanted to cry, and give up and not go through all those steps again. My husband asked if we do it again, will it increase our chances? I said,  "I don't know."

So many people we know suggested that we start a "gofundme" account. We debated on it. After all, it wouldn't hurt to try. We both miss out on a day's worth of wages when we take off to go to Newburgh for the actual IUI procedure. My insurance doesn't cover any part of it. We must pay the $505 before the procedure. Every month we are forking out over $600 just to try to get pregnant.

Sorrow, depression, hopelessness, and anger, are some of the feelings I felt. It's like loosing a loved one every month. It's painful. 

However, 10% - 15% of couples struggle with this very same problem. I know we are not alone, but it really feels like we are at times.

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