2021!

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I'm not positive because I have been told different things, however I believe covid has struck our house again.  This time it was both of us. I think my husband got it worse than I did. My grandmother had it, my in laws have it, and my aunt has it. I think my parents may have escaped but waiting on some tests. My grandmother has received a pacemaker today which came as a huge shock to all of us.
I've applied for a couple of jobs and receiving loss of wages assistance. Im back to work now however my husband is not. 
I had a good Christmas and new year's with my family. We finally got all of our Christmas stuff down and some left to put away still. We have put up some valentines day decorations now.
Right now as I write this I feel unwarranted anxiety, and severe pain all over. My skin feels so tight as if I'm swollen all over. Pins and needles all over. I want to crawl in bed and hide and sleep. I can't stand this feeling. I can't even sit still because of my pain and anxiety. 

This is my voice. This is my blog. 
HEAR ME ROAR 

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