"Painsomnia" from Fibromyalgia

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August 30, 2019:
3:25 AM: Can't sleep. I'm in so much pain tonight. All I can think about is sleeping.  I've tried relaxing music, heat, tylenol-arthritis strength, my usual daily medication for my fibromyalgia,  and my essential oils.  I asked my fiancee kinda teasing but kinda serious if he could come over and slide my warm fuzzy socks on and pull my blanket over top of me because I couldn't move hardly. I'm so stiff, weakened, in pain, and extremely fatigued by my fibromyalgia flare. I was feeling great and was looking forward to seeing my fiancee for a dinner date until I got a call saying I would have to work an 11.5 hour shift today. I was supposed to train a new person at work and that person was a no call no show. Then got told that I would have to work all day. This is the life of management I guess. I thought I was doing ok when I got home but the moment I got into bed I could not move anymore.  At one point I almost didn't make it to the bathroom in time because I could barely move and every step I took, took a great amount of effort. I felt weak as though I had ran a marathon while carrying 50lb weights for the full length of the marathon. I'm experiencing something called costochondritis or also known as noncardiac chest pain from fibromyalgia. It's apparently common in fibromyalgia patients. For me the pain is so severe that it literally hurts to breathe and it hurts not to breathe. I'm also experiencing TMJ pain causing it to hurt to talk to my fiancee while I was on the phone with him. It makes me feel horrible for hurting this bad and not wanting to talk cause it hurts. I think my hair even hurts! (Kidding!) My oils and heat has provided a little relief. I just don't know what to do to get more relief from this.  I know that I need rest from a fibromyalgia flare this severe but the pain is so severe I can't sleep! I'm so stiff and in pain that I can't find a comfortable spot to fall asleep in. I'm seriously considering a weighted blanket for myself. I've heard they provide some comfort and relief from the pain, as long as it is not the touch sensitive fibromyalgia pain. Usually I am touch sensitive though, so I'm not sure how it would work for me. I believe that is called tactile allodynia, where a tap on the shoulder hurts. I also discovered why I've been so itchy lately too. It is also related to my nerve endings being in hyperdrive from the fibromyalgia. One day I was scratching a spot on my hand so much I made it blister and then the blister broke and now I have a small scabbed sore on my hand from itching so bad and not realizing that I was doing that! Yikes, scary!

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