May update

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May 23, 2019: Ugh.... I don't know what to think say or feel right now. I feel like I'm unworthy of a guy's love. I don't know why honestly.  Everyone deserves to be loved. I think I've been trampled on by guys so much that they have made me feel like this.
Right now I'm just laying down in bed aching all over from the rain and my fibromyalgia and arthritis. For some reason my stress fracture site from last year has been bothering me and hurting me. I'm using my oils to help ease my pain some and I'm ordering a pain cream that everyone loves. We'll see if it helps me.
Right now I'm talking to a guy that I have talked to before and I honestly don't remember why we stopped talking in the first place, but I am almost afraid to let him in. I want to but I don't at the same time.
My job is going well I reckon. I'm now a manager in training at work.  Basically it means if they open a new store or a management position opens up that I'm next in-line to be the manager. However I have to get trained for the position first. My manager and I are desperately looking for part time help at our store and we are having to work open to close shifts just so that each other can have a day off from work. I'm not looking forward to my first open to close. I did it back when him and I was at the Greentree mall and it wasn't fun, but it was do-able.

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