My Daily Struggle

April 24, 2018: I've had so much stress on my plate recently, yet all I can do is give it up to God. I've had some prayers answered for me, and I'm ever so grateful for that. I lost my health insurance. I went to my Dr for my mental health and explained that I had no insurance and that I was due for my abilify injection. They had a sample of it. They also increased my dosage due to the thinking that it was running out a week before I was due for it.      I came across an article about the daith piercing and it helping to reduce fibromyalgia pain along with migraines. I finally decided to take a chance and try it out.  I got the daith piercing in my right ear  yesterday. I plan on eventually getting it in my left ear as well. It didn't hurt, but the crunching sound was not pleasant. I discovered that it goes through 2 cartlidges in that particular spot. The girl who pierced my ear answered questions that I had.      I haven't been to ba...

April 7, 2018: Greetings to all my readers around the world.      Special shout out to my best friend Autumn on her recent engagement.      However I can't lie, I'm not really jealous. I was jealous at first. Not so much now. I'm super happy for them. I'm glad that they have found each other. I just keep praying and searching for my man or an answer to my question; Am I supposed to remain single? Waiting for an answer or for anything is not my strong suit. While growing up I was told you graduate,  you find a man, get married, have kids, live happily ever after. THE END.      Unfortunately I feel like there's no beginning for me. Yes, I graduated and did two years of college. My story typically goes something like meet guy, guy lies, says he'll go to church every Sunday and Wednesday night and doesn't, chokes me, cheats, throws stuff at me, hits me, lies about previous relationships or current relationships, and is...

April 4, 2018: My sincerest apologies for not having wrote recently. I've been through a lot recently and wasn't sure of what to write or to tell you. I had my LEEP done to remove the abnormal cervical cells. I've bled and shed from it like nothing else. I'm still healing. I got a new cell phone this year and couldn't access my pay stub information and now I have no insurance and trying to get new insurance. I wasn't able to go to my OBGYN for my follow up. I haven't been able to go to the gym to go swimming or to work out. It has depressed me. The rain and snow has wrecked havoc on my body and my fibromyalgia. I'm still seeing a therapist and I plan on going back to group therapy on Friday morning.      They say in Disney that "A dream is a wish your heart makes." Disney obviously never had PTSD dreams. All of my dreams are nightmares. With PTSD, the dreams can be nothing more than the feelings and emotions of the traumatic event you experien...