My Daily Struggle

March 18, 2018: Thursday morning I went back to see my obgyn. I thought I was going in for another biopsy. I wasn't. I was going in for a LEEP. LEEP stands for Loop Electrosurgical Excision Procedure. Let me tell you, it smelled all burnt when they was doing it. Not pleasant. I'm doing better and returned to work yesterday. I felt very swollen the day after but the pain had subsided dramatically since the day of the procedure. I slept quite a bit since the procedure. I feel like  this has had a play on my depression a good deal. Being told that you have CIN 2/Moderate Cervical Intraepithial Neoplasia is tough. It's also called cervical dysplasia. However, due to recent events at work, I was working continuously and it took a toll on my body and my fibromyalgia. I had reached a point of constant pain in my body. I was getting irritable and moody. I  still am to some extent. I'm drained and tired. All I wanted to do is to sleep. That's what I did too. Now that the we...

March 9, 2018: I have less than a week before my upcoming procedure to be done. Next Wednesday for those that are also concerned and praying on my behalf. Dr said I'd want to be off work for 2-3 days after the procedure is done. AAAHHH! That long just to heal up and to stop bleeding and not be in pain? I know it's not surgery, but all I get for pain is "take some Ibuprofen" advice. I am getting a decent sized chunk of my cervix surgically removed with a machine! Yes, I'm seriously starting to freak out now. Sunday night a cousin of a coworker started harassing me standing there staring at my backside while I was trying to work. My coworker had noticed that he would try to stare at me and sneak glances at me. Then Friday night he started following me through the mall trying to talk to me. They are looking at getting him banned. He doesn't come to the mall to buy stuff. He's only there to see me and his fiance/gf/ex whatever she is at the moment. NOT to men...

March 4, 2018: I went to my OBGYN FOR my results and they weren't good.  I have to go back for another Colposcopy/cone biopsy. I'm not sure why or what they are looking for exactly, but I'm not looking forward to this. My prescription for my gabapentin got messed up and then the pharmacy ran out of my gluten free pills and once they got my new prescription in they could order my gluten free pills in. I went a week and a half on very few pills, during the rain and cold weather. Now my body has to readjust to being on 1200mg all over again instead of 900mg or less. Friday night I had to work from 1 to midnight because a coworker didn't show up. We are already short staffed because of the usual drama here. I'm having to work more hours and days a week because of it. Then today some guy that I find uglier than snot starts staring at me while I'm doing my job. I am aware of who he is and politely asked him to leave me alone please. He then reported that I yelled at...