Ex's
I reckon I should blog to try to get things off my chest. Yesterday I found out some news about one of my ex-bfs. I found out that he passed away from a major cardiac arrest. Apart of me wants to rejoice in the fact that I no longer have to worry about running into him ever again. Apart of me feels sorry for him and his daughter and family. The conflict is real. He passed away on labor day and the day before my brother's birthday. All day yesterday my mind was filled with the horrible memories that I now know was of him cheating on me. Rather the memories of him cheating on his woman by spending time with me and spending time with my family. My husband tried to remind me of the memories with him. However, just as PTSD normally behaves I couldn't think and focus on those memories. I have the memories of me and my husband, the day he proposed, swimming in his aunt's pool, going to the farmer's market, painting and cleaning up our house, picking out our mattress for our...