My Daily Struggle

September 14, 2018: My birthday is in 10 days. I'm in excruciating pain right now. Hurricane Florence has made landfall. I'm not sure how much more pain and exhaustion I can handle.  I want to fall asleep standing up. I want to cry. I have one more full 11 hour day before I get 2 days off. Yay me! I'm going to sleep well those 2 days. I went looking at dresses for my friend's wedding. I'll be taking pictures for her. I'm so happy for her and her groom to be. My only wish is that I can find someone who makes me as happy as they are.

September 6, 2018: It's been a month since I've wrote almost. I'm doing pretty good. I've had severe writer's block. I was sick most of last week, the weekend and I'm finally on the mend. Saw my therapist the other day.  Spoke about my anxiety while I am driving. I'm afraid to run into one of my exes at whatever location I'm going to or being followed home. I have to remind myself I'm safe in my car, I'm safe wherever I am going, and safe at home. One thing that was suggested was to roll my window down so I don't feel suffocated in my own car. I've tried it and it helps.