My Daily Struggle

May 20, 2018: I was seen Thursday at the podiatrist for my foot. I found out I have a stress fracture in my 2nd metatarsal of my right foot. I'm in a walking boot. I go back after 2 weeks to get it re-examined. It was almost humorous watching the Dr looking at my xrays trying to find the fracture.      I'm so sick of trying to date. The only thing they see is a pretty face. I'm more than that. I'm slightly depressed right now because of dating and the way I am treated. Men don't know how to treat a woman these days. Everyone has a kid and a baby momma. I am picky, and I don't want a guy that has a kid or that has been divorced. I want a guy that attends a Church of Christ like myself, or one that is willing to go to church with me. I didn't think it was to much to ask for, but I was wrong. Maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe I'm annoying and unliked.

May 12, 2018: I lay here wide awake and yet so exhausted. Last night I had another night terror that has bothered me all day and now it is still bothering me. I've been shaking and trembling through out the day. It seriously has me messed up! Now it's 1 AM and the insomnia is in full gear. I can't close my eyes. I see the faceless monster chasing me again. Chasing me and catching up with me to suffocate me to death. I took my melatonin to help me sleep in hope that it will work for me tonight.      For now I think it might work and I'm going to hope it does. Catch you in a second.      ....It worked! I fell asleep shortly after I put my phone down from blogging. I slept very soundly and no night terrors. That is the one thing I was afraid would happen again. Right now I'm at work sitting here taking it easy on my foot . I've gotten several compliments on my dress and my metal flower tiara, and it has uplifted my spirits some as well. Compliments...

May 10, 2018: Yesterday was another therapy day for me. I went to see my therapist and had a break through. I opened up about something that I've only told 2 other people. I will not blog about it or the details. She said it is a subject that needs to be discussed more next time. So we shall do so in 2 weeks time.      I went to urgent care yesterday as well for my foot. My friend thinks it is a stress fracture.  The dr didn't rule it out.  Stress fractures don't show up on an xray. The dr put me on an anti-iinflammatoryin Hope's that it will help. If it doesn't get better then off to a foot dr or an orthopedic surgeon it is.      I still don't know what to get my dear sweet favorite and only momma for mother's day. Sorry momma!      I need a few prayers for one of my bosses. I won't go into detail again. The issue at hand is putting a little stress on me and a coworker and him. Prayers lifted up to heaven on ...

May 7, 2018: I was told I need to blog to get my feelings and emotions off my chest. Here it goes: What is the deal with women and their clothing choices? In the past few weeks I've seen multiple over weight women who just let their stomach hang out from their pants and shirt. I'm not talking about belly shirts. I'm talking about their pants not pulled up and their shirts pulled down. I've also seen women wearing other very questionable clothes showing their bra and panties, not wearing pants with their shirt, not wearing a shirt. I once heard, if you want to be treated like a queen, dress like one. If you like being treated like trash, beaten abused and used, then by all means, dress trashy and show off your assets.      While I'm on my soapbox, I want to bring up lying. I get sick of being lied to. I get told all the time at my new job, "Oh I forgot my money, let me go get it, I'll come right back." Then they never come back.  Just tell me the truth...